Writing...

about stuff.. just stuff going on my mind lately. shall we talk about that or not?
I guess yes. SO hmm

Did you ever hate someone SO much you could kill her. I'm talking about my wonderful sister right now. but really there's other ppl I could kill. no joke.
So gé did buy a house. they need to remake it completely. all we are talking about these days is.. her HOUSE! and then she'll get mad. then they'll yell. then I have a darn headache.. She thinks she's too intelligent for us. she think everyone is dumb in this damn family. but that said family thinks she is the greatest person in the whole world. I dont even know how to describe her. she's always been like that. really. and everyone loves her. and by everyone I mean EVERYONE. most of my friends that met her like her better than me. no. all of my friends. but Maud. and i cant blame them really. she's funny. outgoing. smart. beautiful. and I could go on and on. she is everything I am not. and people like that.

I missed 4 exams. out of 4. UGH!

I wanna see luca (3yo cousin). BADLY. i miss him. i need him.

i dont wanna go to the cinema with greg. but i'll probably need to. cause I told him no so many times that i need to say yes. just once. even if i am getting me mad as soon as i hear his voice.

I dont want to think anymore.

I need to start sleeping properly already. getting up everyday at 7. and sleeping really badly at night. I am WAY tired

I need to start eating on a regular basis again. even if i am not hungry. my wonderful mom is starting to see i'm not eating well.

I need to study for the next days' exams. but I really dont wanna.

I need to get out of that house.

I need to get drunk. but I need to find someone I really trust to come with me. I cant get drunk by my own. lol.

enough for today. see you tomorrow.